The Past

[03 Sep 2013|04:19am]


I am alive.

Current Mood: awake

Yes, believe it or not, I am actually alive.

I live in Austin, TX now.
I am employed at
I have a 2/2 apartment that I share with a good friend of mine, Carrie.
Life is just rolling on by....

Things are good though! I think. :)

This is what I look like. After I get rained on.


[26 Nov 2010|04:08am]


[22 Nov 2009|05:52pm]


sup LJ
long time no see
still in broward college
trying to study abroad in japan
really hard, financial aid is like, near impossible to come across, regardless to how great our president is.

for anyone who still wants to be in touch,

since, i kinda uh, never use LJ. =p

[19 Feb 2009|09:44pm]


Current Mood: amused

hi guys,
life is going well.
still in school in broward college, switched majors. i'm in the nursing program now.
i'm working at a law firm in boca, have been for almost 6 months now. it's going very well.
i got a hello kitty tattoo. check my myspace for pics, ( and I dyed my hair blue-black.

a little bored with things, but i'm dealing with it.


if i told you things i did before,
told you how i used to be,
would you go along with someone like me?
if you knew my story word for word,
had all of my history,
would you go along with someone like me?

[23 Oct 2008|09:41pm]


Current Mood: bored

 So far so good.

I'm taking Advanced Digital Imaging, Digital Illustration, and Composition 1, all at Broward College in Ft. Lauderdale.

It's going great, so far. It's fun, i've made a lot of friends so far, and I really love the school a lot more than I ever did PBCC. So much better. SO much!

I got a job at a law office about 2 months ago (Aug 21), as a receptionist. Today marks 2 months and 2 days. It pays pretty well, but I actually still have only 35$ in my bank account. I've been paying off my credit cards, which is going well (however slowly), which one hit the 2700$ mark and the other at 1650$-- which is NO GOOD!  My minimum payment is 91$ on one card, and the interest went up to <b>TWENTY-EIGHT PERCENT (28%) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</b> WTF?? I have NO idea when it got up there, but it's BS and basically that means tacked onto every month, they want about 60$ or 70$. So for example, if I make a 91$ payment, basically i'm really only paying 20$ or 30$. Shitty, right? So yeah, i'm trying to pay that shit off <i>quick</i>.

Anyways, just wanted to update on the job status really. No boyfriend at the moment either-- Mat and I broke up a while ago-- mainly I would say because of distance. Weston is a bit too far(2+ hrs by bus), especially when the person on the other side can't really ever travel to see me.

I've been happy. I'm working, i'm in school, and i'm doing good at all of the above. 

It's nice to have money (by that- i mean like, i can go to lunch now. lol.) I go to Chipotle or Moes like every other day cause I work right next to Town Center Mall... And they're really close and affordable lol. 

Well I'm gonna go now. It's been a long day. If anyone wants to ever get lunch with me, feel free to call. 561 414 6821. I'm always free. I go to lunch alone every day. In fact, I forgot to mention: I have virtually no friends. Ria, Martin, and my sister are the only people I talk to. I don't do anything on friday nights, I don't go out and party, and I don't hang out anymore. If anyone wants to ever hang out... please, feel free. 

<b>Goodnight, LJ~</b>

[29 Jul 2008|12:14am]


Current Mood: loved

fuck, i am bored.

redid my myspace about me thingy, added some pretty little blue and red buttons, added this gay little colorful thing.

oh, ya, i have a boyfriend. his name is mat.
he's amazing and makes me happy.
i am happy now. =)
got my job back at st.andrews, so i'll start working there soon. assuming they don't deny me because of the background check.

I switched to Broward College in downtown Ft. Lauderdale, i'm actually taking classes i want to take, as opposed to pbcc, where you get all the shitty leftover classes because they offer barely anything ihatethatschoolwithapassion.

check out my flickr, there's some cool pics on there.

that's not even half of em'. so gogogo look at my pics :D

anyways, i'm out. later guys!

[14 Jul 2008|04:11pm]


Current Mood: bored

beep beep.

listen to some dope beats:

today has been boring, i went to bed last night around 630am, woke up today at like 1030am, and uh, our power was out. the only reason i woke up is cause i was sweating cause the a/c was obviously off since the power was out. it came back around 11am though.

yeah, this is a bs post. playing some video games to pass the time and looking for some movies to download. any suggestions?

I'll leave you with some lame lyrics.

Please don't go

Babe, I love you so
And I, I want you to know
That I'm gonna miss your love
The minute you walk out that door

Please don't go
Don't go~
Don't go away
Please don't go
Don't go~
I'm begging you to stay

Please don't go

Babe, in my lifetime
I've had one dream come true
I was blessed to be loved
By someone as wonderful as you

Please don't go
Don't go~
Don't go away
Please don't go
Don't go~
I'm begging you to stay

Please don't go

Basshunter - Please Don't Go

[02 Jul 2008|01:12pm]


Current Mood: drained


so, things are looking worse each day, i try to smile and make the most of everything, but sometimes not everything works out the way i wish it would.

still no job.
can't do community service anywhere because my charge is for grand theft.
i hate going to a therapist.
i have to go to probation tomorrow; the last time i went, it took 3 hours.

the only people i really trust and care about right now is Lulu, Gian, Adam, Valerie, and umm.. that's it.

Adam was living with me for about a week and a half. Best week and a half of my life. He kept me so happy and alive; took my mind off the bad artifacts of life. Unfortunately my mom is a raging bitch and she's just been tearing me down left and right. Every single day she yells/lectures me about how i'm worthless because i don't have a job, I don't do anything with my life, and i'm not trying. She thinks i'm a drug addict and that I'm not looking for jobs. I have been to over 50 places in the past week, with Adam. She even took me to about 10 of them. I don't know what to do anymore. When I do all that she asks, it's like she pulls up another long list of shit I should do that I haven't been doing. I try to do shit right but apparently i only do it wrong. I've been crying so much lately. More than I ever have in my life. It sucks that my friends have to end up seeing me that way, because I feel so fucking weak and stupid it's not even funny. I bring everyones mood down and I don't want to do that but I can't help it. My mom said if I can't comply with her rules and show her respect and do my part that she's kicking me out. So I said I'll leave. She thinks if I leave it's taking the easy way out so when I finally get to going she tells me not to go and I just need to shape up. Well, next time, I'm out.

I have nowhere to go. I don't know where I'll go once I leave but I guess it's the streets for me or whatever people who run away from home do. I'll probably end up at lulu's for a while until I can figure out what the hell i'm going to do. I have no money. I have to pay 50$ to probation this month and I don't know how I'm going to do it. My phone officially went off today. I can't even afford to take the bus anymore.

I need someone to hug, someone to love. Someone to take my mind off this fucking life. I don't even have any friends to call. I don't even think I have anybody reading this journal anymore. Most of you will just skip on over this entry, cause really none of you even know me anymore.

Well, just felt like writing. I have nothing else to do. I have nobody to talk to and I just need to get this shit off my chest, even if it's to nobody.


i just want to smile like this again.

[15 May 2008|12:04am]

Hey guys.

Current Mood: unsure

hi guys... it's me again. i guess it's customary for me to write a long detailed essay about my life every month or so.

really, i'm just posting in here because I have nothing better to do.

i guess things have been going great great great for me lately. i've been happy as a log and i'm really content with the way everything has been going. i have a bunch of close friends that i really love and I have lots of fun and that i'm really happy to be with. Ria is still my best friend (and always will be), and i've made lots of new friends. One in particular I completely love and for some reason trust with my life, and I feel like we will be friends for a really long time and know each other forever. He lives close too so I get to see him a lot. :) My Eskimooooooooo.

None of my new friends actually read this LJ, since none of them have LJ I don't think...

Work is going alright- but I kind of want to quit. I don't really enjoy my job anymore... It's not really fun and I don't really like being there anymore. It's just not something I look forward to like I used to. My boss has been cutting my hours and pay, and all in all treating everyone very unfairly and nobody is very happy. So i'm looking for a new job.. but I don't know where.

I still want to get out of here. Still want to go to NYC. Still need somebody to take the risk and jump ship with me..

I'm still lonely and I wish I had someone to hold and love. I really want somebody to kiss and be able to love when i'm feeling blue. I just wish I could meet someone who felt the same... Where are you, prince charming? =( .

I have quit all illegal drugs. For those of you who knew/thought I did any, well here I am admitting it was a bad phase and i'm totally out of it. I'm happy sober. I can sleep at night. I can eat correctly and my appetite is back to normal. I lost 6 pounds and I need to get it back. My clothes don't fit me anymore and I looked sick for a while. But I'm quickly getting back to normal!

I'm done with school, passed all my classes with B's. I'm off Academic Probation! Woohoo! I'm glad to be out for the summer. I needed a break from that place...

Me and Ria have been having a LOT of fun lately. We have just been having the times of our lives the past week/two weeks, and i've overall been pretty happy lately. It's only every once in a while that I get all emo and feel super unbelievably lonely. I can't wait to see Ria Sunday! We have discovered like 50,000 inside jokes nobody will ever understand! Can you make of a bacon slave? Claaam-Sheeelllll. Where are we going? Bicycle kicks! When I think of trucks, I dream of pancakes. SKI-TRAN! planet wal-mart! Country Wal-Mart! my best friend gets excited when she thinks of hamburgers. My Ravio turned into a Torchure Chamber LOL!! Lyons Rd being the most beautiful site. The field. Tetris signs(3 ways!). Hanging out with the homeless and being stood up for our meeting! Max being my savior.

Nobody would ever understand. ^^^!

I was in a bus accident the other day! Someone smashed into the side of the bus I was on. It was really weird and I was freaked out since it was like a really weird morning for me and a really really overbearingly weird weekend for me too. I was 2 hours late to work... eep!

I am going to bed now. I'm tired. I wish I had somebody to cuddle with tonight.
Thanks for reading,

[18 Feb 2008|11:11pm]


Current Mood: envious

[11 Feb 2008|07:22am]


Current Mood: tired

hey livejournal world
what's up

long time no see
not much has changed

how's everyone?

[25 Dec 2007|03:22am]


Current Mood: groggy

merry christmas


[01 Oct 2007|10:00am]


[24 Sep 2007|03:08pm]


wtf, i'm alive.

[09 Aug 2007|10:47pm]


Current Mood: happy

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If you don`t believe
Here`s another floor filler

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The one you follow
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I`m the rhyme driller
If you don`t believe
Here`s another floor filler

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[22 Jul 2007|06:30pm]


Current Mood: excited


[21 Jul 2007|05:39am]


Current Mood: loved

i applied for a job at sonic LOL

[09 Jul 2007|01:44am]


Current Mood: happy

Feels like the raindrops on my skin
You reach me somewhere deep within
You make my body come alive
You bring me to life

Download Raindrops, by Stunt .

[08 Jul 2007|09:21pm]


Current Mood: happy

This is my kittyt! :)

[06 Jul 2007|06:00pm]


Current Mood: awake

hi guys. it`s me.
i wish i had work today...
i`m so bored and worried...

the edge is high tech...

that`s me as of now. haven`t updated in a while.

[21 Jun 2007|02:45pm]


Current Mood: cold

things are slowly deteriorating for me...

[16 May 2007|10:36am]


Current Mood: bored

hi guys. i love my helio ocean. i need to update my myspace. not my livejournal. english sucks. i miss pump it up. i love my job. i'll take pics at work today. bye!

[27 Apr 2007|12:39am]


Current Mood: depressed

we just watched retep get cremated. i love you baby. =(
we will miss you... a lot...

it's hard to see you go. =[ i wish this wasn't real...
i'll see you in heaven some day baby....

Rest In Peace, Retep

[21 Jan 2007|06:17pm]


Current Mood: sad

Rest In Peace


some picsCollapse )

[13 Oct 2006|09:32pm]

Posted using LJTalk...

i'm using some gizmo project for LJ talk thing. i'm pretty much updating my LJ right now using IM. It's weird. This buddylist thing is cool though, and all of my LJ friends are already on it. Someone download it and i.m me! :D